Kvetch Of The Day...

[hantsbear]

This is bloody ridiculous.  I have only been unemployed for a month or so and yet I can see nothing positive in my work future.  Sure, I am applying for jobs, but there are people with more qualifications, more experience, live nearer the job than I do.  I have not had one interview.  And I can hear people out there saying "So what, I have been unemployed for x years..."   All I can see is humiliation.  If I start applying for lower paid jobs, I will have to sell the house, put a whole lot of stuff into store and basically go back to living in some sort of bed-sit or shared accomodation.  That is, if I can actually get a lower paid job.  I feel I could get hoist by my own petard : "Too much experience; too highly qualified".  Which means I could be forced to the ultimate humiliation.  Returning to live with my father and basically lose any control of my life.  I will basically have to give him power of attorney to run my life as he sees fit, because, quite frankly, if I get to that stage, I will have lost all self respect.  I will feel totally incompetent, lacking in any confidence, stupid, ignorant, incapable - my abject failure will be complete.

And yet people do their damndest to persuade me to be positive - bless 'em - but it's like throwing seeds onto stony ground.  Anything that tries to grow, withers and dies.  I am filled with so much negativity about myself, that anything positive that does happen to me gets swamped, diluted and ultimately eliminated.   There must be a better alternative.  I've tried pills; I've tried therapy.  Am I that hopeless a case???

P.S. Anybody know any decent suppliers of sack-cloth and ashes?

Comments

[beastbriskett.livejournal.com]

As Bill Clinton sez, "Ah feel yer pain"." I've been doing this since June.
You've got two choices: Keep at it, or give up and have all the things you fear come crashing down on you. Not much of a choice, is it?
Living in uncertanity, with rejection at nearly every corner, is an unpleasant place to dwell. That issue won't be settled until you do find a job to fulfill the hole you perceive there. In the meantime, try to surround yourself with the support and positivity of friends who make your life bright. Do things together, chat and dream; get away from the job hunt once in a while and recharge your batteries.
This will allow you to jump back into the fray with a smile, knowing you are presenting a positive, energized face to prospective employers.
And do keep us up on what's happening!

[hantsbear.livejournal.com]

I know I will keep at it because, well, I think I'd rather go down fighting. I need to get a social life of some description as I am quite isolated at the moment. I have some ideas, but being as Russ becomes unemployed after Friday, it may well be time to get him down here and giving me Fierce Eyebrows.