hantsbear | Kvetch Of The Day... (Reply)

This is bloody ridiculous. I have only been unemployed for a month or so and yet I can see nothing positive in my work future. Sure, I am applying for jobs, but there are people with more qualifications, more experience, live nearer the job than I do. I have not had one interview. And I can hear people out there saying "So what, I have been unemployed for x years..." All I can see is humiliation. If I start applying for lower paid jobs, I will have to sell the house, put a whole lot of stuff into store and basically go back to living in some sort of bed-sit or shared accomodation. That is, if I can actually get a lower paid job. I feel I could get hoist by my own petard : "Too much experience; too highly qualified". Which means I could be forced to the ultimate humiliation. Returning to live with my father and basically lose any control of my life. I will basically have to give him power of attorney to run my life as he sees fit, because, quite frankly, if I get to that stage, I will have lost all self respect. I will feel totally incompetent, lacking in any confidence, stupid, ignorant, incapable - my abject failure will be complete.

And yet people do their damndest to persuade me to be positive - bless 'em - but it's like throwing seeds onto stony ground. Anything that tries to grow, withers and dies. I am filled with so much negativity about myself, that anything positive that does happen to me gets swamped, diluted and ultimately eliminated. There must be a better alternative. I've tried pills; I've tried therapy. Am I that hopeless a case???

P.S. Anybody know any decent suppliers of sack-cloth and ashes?