Kvetch Of The Day...

[hantsbear]

This is bloody ridiculous.  I have only been unemployed for a month or so and yet I can see nothing positive in my work future.  Sure, I am applying for jobs, but there are people with more qualifications, more experience, live nearer the job than I do.  I have not had one interview.  And I can hear people out there saying "So what, I have been unemployed for x years..."   All I can see is humiliation.  If I start applying for lower paid jobs, I will have to sell the house, put a whole lot of stuff into store and basically go back to living in some sort of bed-sit or shared accomodation.  That is, if I can actually get a lower paid job.  I feel I could get hoist by my own petard : "Too much experience; too highly qualified".  Which means I could be forced to the ultimate humiliation.  Returning to live with my father and basically lose any control of my life.  I will basically have to give him power of attorney to run my life as he sees fit, because, quite frankly, if I get to that stage, I will have lost all self respect.  I will feel totally incompetent, lacking in any confidence, stupid, ignorant, incapable - my abject failure will be complete.

And yet people do their damndest to persuade me to be positive - bless 'em - but it's like throwing seeds onto stony ground.  Anything that tries to grow, withers and dies.  I am filled with so much negativity about myself, that anything positive that does happen to me gets swamped, diluted and ultimately eliminated.   There must be a better alternative.  I've tried pills; I've tried therapy.  Am I that hopeless a case???

P.S. Anybody know any decent suppliers of sack-cloth and ashes?

Comments

[pirateseasick.livejournal.com]

Try to remember that we are sending love your way, babe.
P.S. - What's a petard? ;)

[hantsbear.livejournal.com]

A petard is a firework. The expression I suppose translates as "what goes around, comes around...!"
*HUG*

[dazzedelf.livejournal.com]

dude I've been there twice in the past 3 years. And it fucking sucks. Between the trying to sell yourself and the rejection issues when nobody buys, it's hard, it's stress full and it makes everything icky and horrid. And staying positive involves drugs that you eventually may have to get tested for. Just revamp your resume once a week until it starts attracting calls. My last 3 jobs, were not places that I applied for but were places that found me online after I had speent weeks/months to actively applying for jobs. I hope things get better for you. btw, I just wanted to say hello, as you randomly added me out of the blue one day and this was the first post i've commented on since then.

[hantsbear.livejournal.com]

thank you, and hello :)

[pink-halen.livejournal.com]

And yet people do their damndest to persuade me to be positive - bless 'em

Being positive is important. Whether you know it or not, you are projecting negativity. It is something people read. I don't know how.

Remember we love you.

Now get that begging sign made. We have a spot reserved for you on the high street.

[hantsbear.livejournal.com]

Whether you know it or not, you are projecting negativity

Therein, at the moment, lies the problem. Despite all the good vibes and wishes and love that people bestow upon me, I still can't seem to cross that void from negative to positive.

Yet...

[hantsbear.livejournal.com]

I know, I know... It probably isn't helpful that I was depressed before I got into this situation. And this is despite the fact that I hated the last 6 months or so of where I was working.

I think part of the problem is isolation; it's a bit like the episode of "The Simpsons" where Bart breaks his leg diving into the swimming pool and has to spend summer in his room with just his brain for company...!

[beastbriskett.livejournal.com]

As Bill Clinton sez, "Ah feel yer pain"." I've been doing this since June.
You've got two choices: Keep at it, or give up and have all the things you fear come crashing down on you. Not much of a choice, is it?
Living in uncertanity, with rejection at nearly every corner, is an unpleasant place to dwell. That issue won't be settled until you do find a job to fulfill the hole you perceive there. In the meantime, try to surround yourself with the support and positivity of friends who make your life bright. Do things together, chat and dream; get away from the job hunt once in a while and recharge your batteries.
This will allow you to jump back into the fray with a smile, knowing you are presenting a positive, energized face to prospective employers.
And do keep us up on what's happening!

[hantsbear.livejournal.com]

I know I will keep at it because, well, I think I'd rather go down fighting. I need to get a social life of some description as I am quite isolated at the moment. I have some ideas, but being as Russ becomes unemployed after Friday, it may well be time to get him down here and giving me Fierce Eyebrows.

[bigbob1079.livejournal.com]

I know how you feel Steve. I was in a similar situation after I graduated college about three years ago. It was tough finding a job that I really wanted, and the jobs which I knew I could get didn't want to give me a chance because they saw that I would probably be there for only a short time due to me having a college degree. I too also was not thrilled about having to possibly move back to Connecticut to live with my mom after to have lived so long on my own in New York City and lose my independence. I did move back, but it was for completely different reason since my mom's unexpected death brought me there, but you can read that in my last blog to find out the whole story.
When looking for jobs, I am like you. I apply to jobs which are on all different levels. The only advice I could give you is to keep plugging away at it, and don't give up the good fight. I wish I was there to help you, and comfort you. It sounds like this cuddly Koala/Teddy Bear needs a hug and a cuddle right now. Hey, if you have no luck with finding something soon, I could always get you to come over here, and find you something. I will come to to England to visit, pack you up in my suitcase, and cleverly get the cuddly Koala/Teddy bear that you are over here. LOL!

Bear Hugs!

Bob