Blind Vision...
Feb. 16th, 2007 10:01 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
hantsbearThere is an image that haunts me. I am falling, rolling at constant speed, down a wide, circular marble staircase. As I fall, all step back but look on with horror; paralysed and unable to help. It's just an image.
People are helping in their own sweet way and I am grateful. Grateful for support; grateful for the valentine messages on valentinr. Bear with me - I am trying to weather the storm and I am hoping that once I move; close the door on Gosport and open a door somewhere else that I will accept the positive step that it is. Yes, I will rant, rail and howl from time to time. It's cathartic and I need to do it. I am not going to bottle it up as that way leads to more serious mental damage. And the one person who gets the worst of it,rock_bear, does not deserve half the crap I throw at him, especially at the moment.
I am still damaged goods. But I am repairing.
People are helping in their own sweet way and I am grateful. Grateful for support; grateful for the valentine messages on valentinr. Bear with me - I am trying to weather the storm and I am hoping that once I move; close the door on Gosport and open a door somewhere else that I will accept the positive step that it is. Yes, I will rant, rail and howl from time to time. It's cathartic and I need to do it. I am not going to bottle it up as that way leads to more serious mental damage. And the one person who gets the worst of it,
rock_bear, does not deserve half the crap I throw at him, especially at the moment.I am still damaged goods. But I am repairing.
