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Brain Droppings...
Mar. 7th, 2006 08:21 pmAnd so life goes on.
I suppose I'm still trying to make some sort of sense out of the last month or so; being off work for 2 weeks with stress, lots of visits to hospitals for one thing and another, discovering finally I am Type II Diabetic and feeling quite calm about it... Hell, I have never been off work sick for 2 weeks. My worry is I still feel a little fragile, and there have been times over the last week certainly where i was nearly back over the edge again; it was my own bloodymindedness that stopped me - a certain determination that I wasn't going to let the buggers get me down. And then having a visitor at the weekend to play with; discovering new sexual practices and considering possibilities...
And still there is that nagging feeling in the back of my brain that there are changes coming.
Question is, am I ready for them?
I suppose I'm still trying to make some sort of sense out of the last month or so; being off work for 2 weeks with stress, lots of visits to hospitals for one thing and another, discovering finally I am Type II Diabetic and feeling quite calm about it... Hell, I have never been off work sick for 2 weeks. My worry is I still feel a little fragile, and there have been times over the last week certainly where i was nearly back over the edge again; it was my own bloodymindedness that stopped me - a certain determination that I wasn't going to let the buggers get me down. And then having a visitor at the weekend to play with; discovering new sexual practices and considering possibilities...
And still there is that nagging feeling in the back of my brain that there are changes coming.
Question is, am I ready for them?
