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hantsbear ([personal profile] hantsbear) wrote2007-08-19 06:34 pm
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Innafunk...

Feeling particularly craptacular right now.  An ongoing sense of loss, anger, depression all going back to when I was made redundant.  Sure, I wasn't happy in the job but I didn't see the end coming.  Okay, the payout cushioned the blow for a while but that is long gone.  I'm having to "make do".  Which is something I'm not used to and it doesn't come easily to me.  My wages barely cover my living expenses and a gratuity to each of my creditors all of whom engage in regular correspondence with me.  Or try to, in any case.  Fortunately, I have made damn sure none of them have a current phone number for me otherwise they'd be using that form of misery induction on me.  I'm seriously thinking of cancelling Christmas this year and just hiding in my room.  What have I got to celebrate?  (Yes, I know there are many things I should be thankful for, and am thankful for - just indulge me.)  I can't whip up the motivation to be sociable, partially because it costs money.  There are things I have allocated money to and paid for in advance, but they are few and far between.

Right now, I don't feel like I am living; I am just existing - I have no purpose.
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[identity profile] draegonbaer.livejournal.com 2007-08-19 07:00 pm (UTC)(link)
I've been there, so I can relate.. hugs. Just keep in mind that every situation is temporary and one day it'll be past history.

[identity profile] benpanced.livejournal.com 2007-08-20 12:04 am (UTC)(link)
I know how you're feeling, little koala. I'm in the same sort of funk, myself.

{{{{hugz}}}}

[identity profile] vmbear.livejournal.com 2007-08-20 02:16 am (UTC)(link)
Don't let it get to you. Things WILL get better.

[identity profile] curlycub.livejournal.com 2007-08-20 01:05 pm (UTC)(link)
BIG HUGS, im thinking of you, and I know things will look up for you X

[identity profile] msfg.livejournal.com 2007-08-22 07:53 am (UTC)(link)
I won't give you a pep talk cos maybe you just need to ride out the crap period.

If the creditors thing is getting a bit much, maybe consider getting a debt management company in. You pay a nominal fee but they stop the correspondance and the nasty letters arriving, not to mention getting interest frozen...

I will be sending you good vibes Mr Koala - and thanks for the card. x
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